I have completely burnt myself out, to the point where last night I settled in to start the new Netflix series The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, and I had to shut it off half an episode in. I instead opted to watch the animated movie Monster House, and I thought even it was a little too scary. It could traumatize children! (or 35-year-olds...)
I blame The Visit. And The Haunting of Hill House. And Scary Movie Marathon. And all the other scary movies and shows in between. I just went too hard this year, tried to watch too much scary stuff throughout the month of October, and I'm so done. I just want Christmas movies to start so I can sleep without listening for noises and catching sight of shadows out of the corner of my eye.
Don't get me wrong. I still love Halloween, and I've had a lot of fun gearing up and getting ready for it. I've had my costume ready and waiting since mid-September, I've been stocking up on Halloween candy for weeks and made up my treat bags on the weekend, I had a fun evening carving pumpkins and roasting pumpkin seeds with my mom on Friday, and despite the scary movies, I had a great time with Lindsay, Ryan, Sam & Lainey eating treats and pizza and having a fun day on Saturday.
But it took me a long time to shake off the heebie-jeebies from watching The Visit earlier this month. And I still don't understand how I got so sucked in to The Haunting of Hill House when it bothered me so much afterwards. I mean, I'm still worried the Bent Neck Lady is going to appear at the end of my bed every night, and I finished watching the series a week ago.
For Scary Movie Marathon, I picked two movies I'd already seen so that it would be "easier" for me. I made it through A Quiet Place fine (while it's an hour and a half of anxiety and holding my breath, I still believe it's one of the best, most creative movies I've ever seen), but I struggled with It. I saw it in theatre over a year ago with a bunch of friends, and maybe that's why my memories weren't so bad? All the giggles and laughter on the way home erased how traumatizing it was? I don't know. But it certainly bothered me on Saturday, to the point where I kept saying to Lindsay, "Do you want to shut it off? I don't mind if you want to shut it off." I was almost a little disappointed when she insisted she would be okay.
Too much. Wayyyyy too much.
So, tonight is Mat Night, and ideally, it's the perfect night to settle in with a big bowl of buttery popcorn, turn the lights out, and watch something scary. At the moment, I'm undecided. I have been saving one of my favourites for this night, Halloween: H20, but I honestly don't know if I can handle it. Even though I've seen it a million times before. Even though I know exactly when the jump-scares are coming. Even though it features a young and incredibly handsome Josh Hartnett. I honestly think I might have to ditch it and just watch Casper instead.
Scary movie burn-out. I didn't know it was a thing, but it's definitely a thing. And I have it.
I just have to hang in for a few more days. Christmas movies are in the near future. I'm ready to leave the ghosts and monsters behind.
Let's go, November.